“To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, ‘If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” –John 8:31-32

Friday, October 30, 2015

The True Horror of Halloween

Halloween Culture Shock

I remember well this time of year…. the crisp autumn air, the leaves on the ground, the abundance of pumpkin food and pumpkin carvings.  Halloween was one of my favorite holidays.  I loved dressing up and going trick-or-treating.  Scary movies always fascinated me, and I got a thrill out of the haunted woods and pumpkin patches that I would frequently visit with my friends.  However, after experiencing the “culture shock” of how Halloween is seen by Christians in other countries, I was forced to take a deeper look at Halloween, and I have come to the conviction that I could never celebrate this holiday again.

I have been living in Nicaragua for almost three and half years now.  I feel like I have assimilated into the evangelical Christian culture for the most part, while I still struggle with the fine line of walking freely in the truth and being bound to the rules of legalism.  Nevertheless, I have been opened my eyes to the truth of the spiritual world and how we as Christians really are in a daily spiritual battle.

One of the biggest shocks was the realization that all evangelical Christians, and even some Catholics, are completely against Halloween.  While the rest of the country wants to adopt our North American traditions of celebrating Halloween, pastors and devoted followers are fighting hard against it.  Why is it such a big deal?  They believe that Halloween is a Satanic holiday, and its practices open up a door for Satan and his demons to enter and destroy people’s lives.

When I first learned about these beliefs, I really didn’t think too much about it and even considered that it might be a cultural misunderstanding or pastors trying to put on more rules about what we should and shouldn’t do.  However, in the past few years, I have decided to analyze and research the holiday for myself, and I have come up with my own conclusions.

Some Questions to Consider

Therefore, I would like to invite you to look and analyze some questions that I have had to ask myself:
1     1.  What are the origins of Halloween?
2.       Do witches really exist?  Should Christians really imitate them?
3.       Do demons really exist?  Should we play around with images, games, and movies that depict them?
4.       Is Halloween currently a Satanic holiday?
5.       Would I entertain the idea of observing any day if I had the slightest doubt that children might be kidnapped or even killed for this day?

  1.  The Origins of Halloween

One of the biggest arguments that I hear from evangelical pastors is that Halloween is a Pagan holiday. On the other hand, a lot of people in the US make a good argument of how it is a Christian holiday. However, I don’t take just anybody’s word; I had to investigate the topic. 
It’s easy to find information to answer this question.  The History Channel has a ton of videos and an article on the topic; I don’t know many people who wouldn’t consider this to be a credible source.  According to the History Channel, Halloween was originally a Celtic holiday called Samhain, where ghosts returned to earth. 

“On the night of October 31 they celebrated Samhain, when it was believed that the ghosts of the dead returned to earth. In addition to causing trouble and damaging crops, Celts thought that the presence of the otherworldly spirits made it easier for the Druids, or Celtic priests, to make predictions about the future…. To commemorate the event, Druids built huge sacred bonfires, where the people gathered to burn crops and animals as sacrifices to the Celtic deities. During the celebration, the Celts wore costumes, typically consisting of animal heads and skins, and attempted to tell each other’s fortunes.” (http://www.history.com/topics/halloween/history-of-halloween)

After further reading of the article, you will see how the Romans incorporated their own practices of worshipping Pomona, the goddess of fruit and trees.  Later on, these days were “Christianized” by the Roman Catholic Church.

Keep this in mind as you read on.  We will look at the end about what the Bible says about all of this.  Let’s go on to the next question.

2. Witchcraft has always existed and still does.

Witchcraft has been a practice in Nicaragua longer than Christianity, and it is still evident in Nicaragua.  Nicaragua’s first lady, Rosario Murrillo, is well known to be a practicing witch.  There are witches everywhere, some known and unknown.  I can even walk a few blocks from my house and find a house with an inverted cross where a supposedly witch doctor lives and treats people with sickness.  Luis’s grandfather was a practicing witch years ago, and up until he died, he would complain about a man following him around and tormenting him.

Most people here know how dangerous witchcraft can be.  I have heard countless stories of how people have consulted witches or have been cursed by witches and later they become demon possessed, get sick, die, or kill themselves. Only the Holy Spirit can liberate people who fall prey to a witch’s snare.

If you don’t believe me, believe what more credible sources say.  On the same History Channel website, you can find information that witches existed and still exist.  The information takes on a different bias saying that witches were only “blamed” for bad occurrences and that modern day Wiccans do not practice witchcraft to harm others.


3.  Demons are not a myth.

A lot of Nicaraguans believe and testify to seeing creatures that we would consider being mythical.  One of the most common mythical creatures are called duendes, translated dwarfs or goblins, who take on the form of a child with pointed ears, backwards feet, and a tail.  Just a few weeks ago, there was a story on the news that a seven year old girl was kidnapped by a duende and taken up into a tree.  He gave her candy and rice and threatened to kill her entire family.  She was missing for 7 hours, when a pastor (one that we know) showed up at her house and prayed for liberation.  She was obviously distressed, but she was able to describe in detail the creature that kidnapped her.

I have also heard of many personal accounts of demon possessions and casting out demons.  There have even been stories and academic articles about the indigenous people on the Atlantic Coast of Nicaragua having a strange sickness with losing consciousness, having supernatural strength, and exhibiting violent behavior.  The sickness is said to occur after having a sexual relationship with the devil. (http://anthropology.msu.edu/anp204-us14/2014/07/18/grisi-siknis-in-the-miskito-people/)


I am very careful about what I research when looking up information about demons, because there are many sources that you shouldn’t play around with.  For example, I was looking up information on the Biblical god “Molech,” when I accidently opened up a Satanic website that described Molech as a demon and what his purposes were.  I didn’t read but a glance because I didn’t want to stay on this website. 

I believe demons are real, and I do not want to play with them. Pastors here teach that scary movies and images that represent demons give an open invitation for that demon to come into one’s home.  We need to warn our children about playing games such as the Ouija, Bloody Mary, and light as a feather, because those that play them are playing with demons.  I have heard many reports about people become demon possessed or dying bizarre deaths, such as being electrocuted in a remote community, after playing with the Ouija board.

4. Halloween is said to be a Satanic Holiday.

Like beforehand mentioned, witchcraft and devil worship is still prevalent in Nicaragua.  Pastors preach that during this month Satanic worshipers are praying to the devil and fasting against Christians.  Halloween is the finale of the month’s rituals.

However, those who practice Satanism do not always do so openly.  Therefore, it is very hard to find information about whether Halloween is really a Satanic holiday without firsthand accounts.  However, I did find a calendar of Satanic rituals, and Halloween and November 1 is one of their holy days. I caution you that the detail about what they do each day is disturbing:  https://wesdancin.wordpress.com/2011/10/07/list-of-satanic-holidays-a-must-read/

There are also many personal testimonies to the occult practices on this day.  One that I recently read was by a famous Latin American artist who sings for a Christian group called Tercer Cielo, or Third Heaven.  One evening before Halloween, he was hiking on South Mountain in the southern part of Phoenix, Arizona to shoot a video for his group.  Suddenly, he stumbled upon a group of people who were dressed in black and praying in odd motion on the ground.  He felt a strange presence and immediately knew that this was a Satanic group. Later, he told some people in Phoenix about what happened, and they told him that it was common for the Satanic groups to go to the high places during Halloween to pray against the Christian churches and the pastors.  http://www.acontecercristiano.net/2015/10/juan-carlos-de-tercer-cielo-halloween.html

5.  Halloween is targeted against children

I don’t know how much you believe of what I’ve written so far. I know that this is a lot to take in and a lot of it depends on the type of faith you have.  However, regardless of what you believe, I don’t think that many people would want to participate in a day that preys on children.

The last and most disturbing argument that pastors in Nicaragua use against Halloween is that children are kidnapped and used as human sacrifices to the devil and his demons.  Many people claim that more children go missing in the month of October.  Let’s look at the facts first.

The FBI is about the only credible source that I can find on statistics of missing children in the USA.  If you look at the past years of missing people, October always has the second highest rate of missing persons, after May.  (What is interesting about May is that April 30/May 1st is Walpurgisnacht or witches’ day).  What is even more disturbing is that October has the highest rate of unidentified deceased bodies in both 2013 and 2014.  (Keep in mind that Satanic rituals are said to occur the whole month of October).

I have heard testimonies about children used in Satanic worship and sacrifices for these days.  Two of these testimonies you can watch for yourself.  Both of these people were raised in the Satanic cult and abused as children. I will warn you that the details they describe are extremely graphic and extremely disturbing.  They go into detail about how they were sexually abused and about how others abused and slaughtered as part of these demonic rituals. Even if these were false testimonies, I still wouldn’t want to have anything to do with a day where there is even a slight possibility that this could be going on.

**WARNING: Both of these testimonies go into graphic detail about what Satanists do in their rituals on these days.  It is horrific and disturbing.

Testimony of former Satanist:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YUeigrPrHdk

There was also a more recent story of a man eating a boy in a haunted house attraction in Texas on October 25, 2015.  His motive for doing so was not mentioned in the article, but clearly, the man was possessed by the spirit of Halloween and went beyond just pretending.   It puts a different perspective on how you view these haunted house attractions that glorify monstrous behavior.

http://now8news.com/texas-man-found-eating-teenage-boy-in-haunted-house-attraction/

What does the Bible say?

Whether or not you believe any or some of the information I have provided, if you are a Christian or even a believer, you need to consider what the Bible has to say about such days and practices.

1.        God does not approve of “Christianizing” Pagan holidays.

After finding a lot of this research, especially the last two videos, I was distraught, terrified, and confused; some of you may feel that way now.  I need to read the Word of God after seeing such dark information.  Coincidentally, or not, my Bible opened to Psalm 106: 34-43: 

“They did not destroy the peoples (the pagans) as the LORD had command them, but they mingled with the nations and adopted their customs. They worshipped their idols, which became a snare (trap) to them.  They sacrificed their daughters to demons.  They shed innocent blood, they blood of their sons and daughters, whom they sacrificed to the idols of Canaan, and the land was desecrated by their blood.  They defiled themselves by what they did; by their deeds they prostituted themselves. 

Therefore, the LORD was angry with his people and abhorred his inheritance.  He handed them over to the nations and their foes rules over them.  Their enemies oppressed them and subjected them to their power.  Many times he delivered them but they were bent on rebellion and they wasted away in their sin.”

The Psalmist was referring to the Israelites and their continual sin of adopting foreign idols and integrating those practices along with “worshipping God.”  In various stories in the Old Testament (see 1&2 Samuel and 1&2 Kings), you will see the continual practice of the Israelites worshipping other gods and setting up idols in the temple. Even the wisest of all men, King Solomon, fell into the trap of worshipping false gods and demons (see 1 Kings 11:4-6). For these actions, the wrath of God burned against Israel and sent enemies to oppress them.

We see for a fact that this holiday was originally a Pagan holiday.  However, the Roman Empire and the Catholic Church have mingled or mixed these Pagan traditions with Christian beliefs. This does not please God.

2.        Witchcraft is an abomination towards God.

The Bible is very clear about how God feels about witchcraft:
“Let no one be found among you who sacrifices his son or daughter in the fire, who practices divination or sorcery, interprets omens, engages in witchcraft, or casts spells, or who is a medium or spiritist who consults the dead.  Anyone who does these things is detestable to the LORD, and because of these detestable practices the LORD your God will drive out those nations before you.”  -Deuteronomy 18:10-12

“Blessed are those who wash their robes, that they may have the right to the tree of life and may go through the gates into the city.  Outside are the dogs, those who practice magic arts, the sexually immoral, the murderers, the idolaters and everyone who loves and practices falsehood.” –Revelation 22:14-15

3.       We cannot drink from the cup of the Lord and the cup of demons.

Demons are mentioned over and over in the Bible.  Most of Jesus’s ministry in the gospels was spent casting out demons.  If we deny their existence, we make God a liar.

Demons are the devil’s army and work to destroy mankind.  They have ranks according to their powers and their purposes.
“For our struggles is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.”-Ephesians 6:12

Not only do they physically attack, demons deceive and teach people false doctrines.  Paul warns us in his letter to Timothy that “the Spirit clearly says that in later times some will abandon the faith and follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons.” -1 Timothy 4:1
We need to be on guard to test the spirits to see if they are from God (1 John 4) and reject any practices that are dedicated to demon worship.

“The sacrifices of pagans are offered to demons, not to God, and I do not want you to be participants with demons.  You cannot drink the cup of the Lord and the cup of demons too; you cannot have a part of both the Lord’s table and the table of demons.  Are we trying to arouse the Lord’s jealousy?  Are we stronger than he?” -1 Corinthians 10:20-22

4.       Those who worship Satan are vessels carrying out the devil’s work in deceiving and assaulting mankind.


Since the beginning, Satan has been our adversary who seeks to “steal, kill, and destroy” all mankind.  He is the father of lies and the master of getting humans to question God’s Word (see Genesis 3). He masquerades what is evil as good; he is the wolf in lamb’s clothing.

“Dear children, do not let anyone lead you astray.  He who does what is right is righteous, just as he is righteous.  He who does what is sinful is of the devil, because the devil has been sinning from the beginning.  The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the devil’s work.” -1 John 3:7-8

“We know that anyone born of God does not continue to sin; the one who was born of God keeps him safe, and the evil one cannot harm him.  We know that we are children of God, and that the whole world is under control of the evil oneWe know also that the Son of God has come and has given us understanding, so that we may know him who is true.  And we are in him who is true—even in his Son Jesus Christ.  He is the true God and eternal life.  Dear children, keep yourselves from idols.” -1 John 5:18-21

5.       We must protect our children by not closing our eyes to harm being done to children.

“The LORD said to Moses, ‘Say to the Israelites: ‘Any Israelite or any alien living in Israel who gives any of his children to Molech must be put to death. The people of the community are to stone him.  I will set my face against that man and I will cut him off from his people; for by giving his children to Molech, he has defiles my sanctuary and profaned my holy name. If the people of the community close their eyes when that man gives one of his children to Molech and they fail to put him to death, I will set my face against that man and his family and will cut off from their people both him and all who follow him in prostituting themselves to Molech.” –Leviticus 20:1-5

I’m not suggesting that everyone go out and start lynching people.  However, we do need to open our eyes and realize that there are evil people who use even their own children in detestable practices to the devil.  We should also guard our own children from being persuaded into these practices.

What You should Do Now:

1.       Research for yourself.

Please don’t just take my word on all of this.  Investigate everything yourself.  Look at all sides of the arguments.  Study God’s Word on the topic.

2.       Pray for discernment.

“If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.”  James 1:5

1 Corinthians 2:10 tells us that God reveals wisdom to us by the Holy Spirit.  We cannot discern the spiritual matters on our own.  Pray that God will give you the Holy Spirit and that he will help you to understand what is true.

3.       Repent.

While we are still struggling with the flesh, we always need to be in repentance; we are not perfect yet.  John the Baptist warned even the most “holy” of people, the Pharisees, and told them to “produce fruit in keeping with repentance” (Luke 3:8).  Based on what God reveals to you about this day, you may feel the need to repent and turn from things that you formerly did. 

“This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all.  If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.
                If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us.  If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. If we claim we have not sinned, we make him out to be a liar and his word has no place in our lives.”-1 John 1:5-10

4.       Educate others.

Based on your convictions, you might feel like God is moving you to persuade others to take a closer look at this day.  We do have to be careful to not condemn people and argue but gently instruct them to the truth.  Remember that the reason we proclaim the gospel and God’s truth is for the benefit of others and not to boast about what we know.

“The Lord’s servant must not quarrel; instead, he must be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Those who oppose him  he must gently instruct, in hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and escape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will.”-2 Timothy 2:24-26

Why did I write all of this?

I decided to write this message because I felt convicted by the Holy Spirit to do so.  At first, I didn’t want to at all; I know that some people will call me crazy or hate me for a lot of what I’ve said in this blog.  Then, my pastor put me in charge of researching and presenting this information to the church.  It amazed me to see how fast I was able to research and write; it felt like God was whispering Biblical texts into my ear. 

After writing most of this blog, I found myself in a spiritual battle that threw me into a deep depression and anxiety attacks out of nowhere.  I wanted to give up writing this and thought it just wasn’t worth it, but I received visits and messages from people saying that they have felt burdened to pray for me.  I was invited to speak and have already spoken on the local Christian radio station here in Leon, and they want me to go back Monday.  It's embarrassing to speak on the radio in Spanish with my foreign accent and occasional mistakes, but I am not doing this to glorify myself.

I admit that I am fearful of what others will say or think.  I know that I am going into battle with the enemy, and that scares me, too.  However, I refuse to be a coward anymore and make selfish excuses to not proclaim God’s truth that sets us free.  Furthermore, I fear God more than the enemy, because who is bigger and stronger than our Mighty God?  Yet, I know that He fights for me, He is with me, and He is working in me to set me and others free from the chains and the lies of the enemy.  He is worth the battle.  His cause is worth the battle.  Shining light on the truth is worth the battle.

“To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, ‘If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples.  Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” –John 8:31-32



Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Don't worry!

Well, everything is still calm here in Leon.  The whole country has been on a red alert for the past few days due to several tremors and earthquakes we have been having.  They have been expecting a huge earthquake in Managua, but no one knows if and when it will happen.  They say we might continue to have tremors/earthquakes for days up to weeks. It also appears that an inactive volcano, Volcano Apoyeque, is reactivating.  If it erupts, it could be pretty disastrous, but there's not sign of it erupting any time soon.

I've just been hanging out in the house the past few days.  Annabelle hasn't felt good; she acts like she's teething. She wants to be held all the time, so that doesn't give me much else to do besides follow the news and the seismic monitors and look at Facebook.  Today, she is feeling better, and Luis is here to hold her for a while.

I keep waiting for something big to happen even though there's still a chance that nothing may happen.  Last night, I started feeling nervous about everything so I just prayed, "Lord, if may anxiousness is trying to tell me something, please let me know.  Otherwise, please take away my nerves and give me peace."  And sure enough, peace came.

Today, Luis and I were talking about how we worry so much about things that are "out of our control", as if we really can control anything.  We decided to look at Matthew 6:25-34:

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them.Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]?
28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

One of the things that God has been teaching us lately is to trust in His provision and be grateful for what we have.  Sunday, Luis and I were both a little down.  We didn't really have any food in the house and not even a cordoba (Nicaraguan currency) to buy food. We had money in the bank, but the banks were closed of course and it charges us too much to use the ATM.  I was pouting a little bit cause I was hungry.  Luis was sad and has been lately about not having a good job to provide for our family (jobs are hard to come by here and he's been looking for over a year).  

While we were getting ready to go out to El Paraiso, I just prayed that God would provide food for us.  What I didn't expect was to get a lesson instead.  I heard someone call at the door.  It was a young man about 20 years old, and I could tell that he was going around asking for things.  This is normal sometimes in Nicaragua, and if you're North American, you get more people that show up at your door step.  So, to be honest, I wasn't happy to see him at first.

I waited for Luis to come up to talk to him before I asked what he wanted. Humbly, the guy responded that he lives in the dump nearby and was going around collecting any food or clothes or anything else that could be donated for other people that live in the dump.  When I saw in Luis's reaction that the guy was sincere, my hardened heart changed.  Here I was complaining about being hungry for just a few hours, and this guy lives in a dump and is so hungry that he is going house to house to get food for himself, his family, and his neighbors. I shamefully gave him what we had left: a few Oreos and a pack of Ramen noodles.  Luis found him a couple of shirts.  I felt bad that was all we could do, so I asked if we could pray for him.  I ended up just crying as I prayed.  The guy was probably wondering what was going on with this white girl!

God taught be a big lesson that day.  We really weren't in need at all.  We have a nice house, a car, clothes, and other needs and luxuries. We live better off than the majority of the people here in Leon, in Nicaragua, and even in the world.  I had no reason to complain.  And I had no reason to worry about eating or drinking because some days there are more important things to focus on, and God provides those things for us anyways.

In the passage in Matthew, what stood out to us the most was the end:  "Each day has enough trouble of its own."  Life is hard, and here I think Jesus is confirming that we will have troubles each and every day.  Every day, there's people that are starving, thirsty, or naked.  We recognize that reality and fear it for ourselves.  We get frustrated, too, when we can't guarantee that it won't happen to us.  It's the same with these earthquakes and natural disasters. We can't guarantee that disaster will come upon us tomorrow, and so we're afraid.

There are three other points that Jesus is trying to teach us:
1) Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? - We need to stop looking at the physical so much.  Physical things are temporary; spiritual things are eternal.  Instead of worrying so much about our physical bodies, we need to worry more about the state of our souls.

2) Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[a]? -  Worrying does nothing.  In fact, studies have shown that constant worrying can actually cause health problems and shorten your life.  You know, out of all these earthquakes we've had here, only two people have died.  One of them wasn't a direct result of an earthquake; it was a 74 year old woman that died of a heart attack.  It was the fear that the woman had of the earthquake (and probably heart problems that were there already) that killed her.

3) But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. - God wants us to seek Him first.  This goes with point #1 that our souls are more important than our bodies.  God wants to provide for us and give us all that we need and sometimes the things that we want.  However, His first priority is giving you eternal life and eternal gifts, but we have to come to Him to receive them.  Unfortunately, most of the times that we come to Him is when we are in need whether we are hungry, sick, heartbroken, etc.

Do you have a need or a problem that you are dealing with today?  Come to Jesus and give it to Him.  He tells us, “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30)  

1 Peter 5:6-10: 
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

Phillipians 4:6-7:
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

I hope this word encourages you to seek Jesus's face today.  Please continue to remember us and pray for us in Nicaragua.  I would also like the opportunity to pray for you.  If you have a special request or concern, please message me. May God bless you and give you peace!

Monday, April 14, 2014

It's Time to Wake Up!

So it's 2 in the morning here in Nicaragua, and I am having trouble sleeping.  Part of it might have a little to due with nerves.  The other part is the need to write and share what I feel in my heart.

The past few days here have been very interesting.  We had a 6.2 earthquake on Thursday afternoon and since then we've had over 1,000 (maybe even 2,000 now) tremors and about 4 classified earthquakes. Most of the seismic activity is coming from Lake Managua close to an active volcano, Momotombo, and an inactive one, Apoyeque.  Right now, the capital, Managua, is under extreme alert because the fault line that was responsible for a huge earthquake in 1972 is active again. It sounds really scary, and for the people that are close to where the activity is going on, it is scary.  However, here is Leon, we are safe and only feeling the affects of what's going on there.  I really don't think anything will happen here, but there's a good chance of something in Managua.

I have been thinking about a lot of things the past few weeks before this all happened, and since these earthquakes started, I have been thinking more.  One thing that I've been thinking about is the lunar eclipse that's going to occur tomorrow morning.  According to an article I read, tomorrow's lunar eclipse aka "blood moon" is going to be the first of four to occur this year and next.  This one happens to fall on the Jewish Passover.  The second one will fall on the Jewish Feast of Tabernacles, and in 2015, the same pattern will occur with the other two blood moons.  Read the article that I got this from:  http://www.express.co.uk/news/world/469228/Four-blood-moons-Does-alignment-of-Mars-Earth-and-Sun-mean-the-end-of-the-world-is-nigh

So like some other people, I have been thinking about the references in the Bible to the blood moon and how it is a sign of the end.  Revelation 6:12:

12 I watched as he opened the sixth seal. There was a great earthquake. The sun turned black like sackcloth made of goat hair, the whole moon turned blood red,

Joel 2:10:
10 Before them the earth shakes, the heavens tremble, the sun and moon are darkened, and the stars no longer shine.

Now, with all this earth shaking, I am starting to wonder if the blood moon is related!  I'm not saying that the end is coming this year or the next, but I believe like Jesus told us in Matthew 24:8 that "all of this is the beginning of birth pains."

The other thing I've been thinking about is my personal spiritual life and the message that God has given to me and what I feel lead to share now.  Just a couple of weeks ago, I was preparing my Sunday school lesson and reading about Mt. Sinai and what the people of Israel had to do to prepare themselves before the LORD descended on the mountain.  Exodus 19:10-11 says, “And the LORD said to Moses, ‘Go to the people and consecrate them today and tomorrow.  Have them wash their clothes and be ready by the third day, because on that day the LORD will come down on Mount Sinai in the sight of all the people.”  I kept thinking about that the people were commanded to wash their clothes; it just was interesting and stood out to me.

Not deferring from the subject, but lately I have been dealing with a lot of frustration and some depression about different things.  A lot of it is that I can't do the things I used to do before being a mother. Don't get me wrong; I love being a mother!  It's just that I don't get out of the house much, and I can't do much ministry because I have to stay home to take care of the baby.

But really, all my frustrations and disappointments come from one simple attitude:  my wanting to control everything.  Control is right up there with making an idol of oneself; I’m trying to be god and not wanting to submit to God’s will and His control. What else is frustrating about realizing this is seeing the wrong attitudes I have within me and not being able to change.

So, I have been pretty upset with myself and some days really depressed.  Long story short, I didn't really talk to anyone about it except Luis.  I had an opportunity to talk to one of my friends here about it, but I was too ashamed to talk to her about what all I was feeling. 

It just so happened that this past week this particular friend had a dream about me.  She said that in the dream Luis and I showed up to her place in our car.  When I got out of the car, she saw that I was dressed completely in white and that my hair and make-up was done up.  She said I looked so beautiful, and she got closer and started complimenting me.  When she got close, she noticed that my eyes were sad and it looked like I had been crying but tried to cover it up with the make-up.  She also noticed that the edges of my clothes were dirty.  Then, she started telling me, “Carmen, don’t be sad! God is your Comforter! You’re not alone! He’s with you and hears you when you are in your room.  He wants to free you.”  I started say, “I don’t know! I don’t know!”  Then, the dream ended.

I was astounded and in awe when she told me this.  I had not told her about any of my problems.  God was speaking to me through her!  He was answering my prayers and my cries to Him and reminding me of my worth in Him.  He is also answering my prayers of being freed from the things that live within me.

I keep thinking about the way I was dressed in white and, again, references to the Bible.  
Revelation 6:11:
When he opened the fifth seal, I saw under the altar the souls of those who had been slain because of the word of God and the testimony they had maintained. 10 They called out in a loud voice, “How long, Sovereign Lord, holy and true, until you judge the inhabitants of the earth and avenge our blood?” 11 Then each of them was given a white robe, and they were told to wait a little longer, until the full number of their fellow servants, their brothers and sisters, were killed just as they had been.

Revelation 7:14:
Then one of the elders asked me, ‘These in white robes—who are they, and where did they come from?’  I answered, ‘Sir, you know.’  And he said, ‘These are they who have come out of the great tribulation; they have washed their robes and made them white in the blood of the Lamb.

According to the Bible, the white robes represents the purity that we have in receiving the forgiveness of our sins and being "washed" in Christ's blood.  In the dream, I am dressed in all white but the edges are dirty.  My friend that had this dream told me that it represents something that's within me that's unresolved, or sin that I have not been freed from.  In other words, it’s the things that I haven’t handed over to Christ.  I haven’t figure out what it could be exactly except for maybe my wanting to control everything and my lack in trusting in Him.  But I am working to draw myself to Christ to figure out what that could be and to have Him cleanse me of it!

Revelation 3:1-6:


These are the words of him who holds the seven spirits of God and the seven stars. I know your deeds; you have a reputation of being alive, but you are dead. 2 Wake up! Strengthen what remains and is about to die, for I have found your deeds unfinished in the sight of my God. Remember, therefore, what you have received and heard; hold it fast, and repent. But if you do not wake up, I will come like a thief, and you will not know at what time I will come to you.
Yet you have a few people in Sardis who have not soiled their clothes. They will walk with me, dressed in white, for they are worthy. The one who is victorious will, like them, be dressed in white. I will never blot out the name of that person from the book of life, but will acknowledge that name before my Father and his angels. Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches.

Friends, I wanted to share all of this with you, because it is time for all of us to wake up!  We need to be earnest and REPENT and come to Jesus!  We need to wash our clothes and get ready for His coming because He will come like a thief!  

Malachi 3:2-3, “But who can endure the day of his coming?  Who can stand when he appears?  For he will be like a refiner’s fire or a launder’s soap.  He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver; he will purify the Levites and refine them like gold and silver.”  

Let's repent now instead of the day of His coming! Come to Jesus because He cares for you.  Our cleansing is not that we need to be called pure but that we are set free from the bonding of sin.  Many of us that are Christians say we believe in Christ and say that He is our Lord, but we still act as slaves to the darkness by refusing to repent and turn away from our sins and actually make Christ the Lord and Master of our lives.  We have to take up our crosses daily by crucifying the sin and disobedience that lives in us to the cross of Jesus.  Just like we take a shower or wash our own clothes, we have to continually come to repentance in Christ until the day He takes us home.

I hope that your eyes and your ears are open to this message and that you won't "Be ever hearing, but never understanding;be ever seeing, but never perceiving."(Isaiah 6:9). I hope that you come to know the fear of the Lord and as much the power of His mighty love for you.  He is a just God and cannot let unjust and rebellious acts go unpunished but He is "a forgiving God, gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and abounding in love." (Nehemiah 9:17) Call out to the One who loves you and ask for forgiveness, healing, and cleansing!

Thank you for reading. I pray you are blessed by it.  Please continue to remember us and Nicaragua in your prayers.
10 Make the heart 

Sunday, February 16, 2014

In the Wilderness

Well, I have been meaning to write this blog for some time, and I finally feel like I have a the motivation to write it and the time while my baby is napping.


My life completely changed 3 weeks ago.  My sweet angel Annabelle came into the world!  If you haven't read her birth story, please check it out on her blog:  http://babyquintanafox.blogspot.com


Since that day, Luis and I have faced lots of challenges.  For one thing, it's hard to recover from a C-section.  Nicaraguan women talk about C-sections being the worst thing in the world, and while it's not as bad as they say it is, it is challenging to get back to life afterwards.  Thankfully, I have a really good doctor who did I great job stitching me up, and I really haven't had any pain.  However, as you probably know, I have been limited to what I can do, and that, to me, has been the hard part. I am always afraid I'm going to split my insides open again! The first few days were the worst since I couldn't even get out of bed or sit down without help. Then, I got mastitis and still had blood pressure problems, which made me even more delicate. I felt so sorry for my poor husband because he had to take care of me AND a newborn (he still hasn't slept a full night since we got home). The good thing is that my dear friend Tamara helped us out and got us someone to come to the house and help clean, wash clothes, cook, and take care of us during the day.  I don't think we would've survived that first week without help!


Not only did we need help in the house, it worked out great to have someone here with me because all of the sudden, Luis has had a lot of work.  For the past year, Luis has been waiting to work.  Well, I think his time finally came.  Right before Annabelle was born, he started working on cleaning up and landscaping this really big garden.  It was supposed to be the beginning of his landscaping business.  Nevertheless, Annabelle came right in the middle of the job, and as soon as he was free from taking us to doctors appointments, he had to start back on the job.  And not only has he been working on that, he has gotten calls do to volcano tours or chauffeur people in our car.  On top of that, he has still been going to El Paraiso 4 afternoons a week.  Sometimes, he'll do a tour in the morning or work in the garden and turn around and go straight to El Paraiso without even having time to eat!  So Luis has been busy, and it's been a big adjustment for me to not have him with me.  However, we are thankful that God has given him work to provide for our family.


Other than schedule changes, we've had to deal with other challenges.  I'm going to call these challenges the plagues because that's what they've felt like!  Before Annabelle, we had ants in our house but they never really bothered us.  The day we came home, Luis moved our furniture and set up our bedroom and her crib in another room that's a lot cooler.  It just so happens that the ants like this room, too. They have gotten in Annabelle's crib (she sleeps with us in the bed now).  They have gotten in my clothes in our wardrobe.  I've literally had to shake and pick ants off my underwear before putting them on!


In addition to our plague of ants, we've had a plague of mosquitoes.  Normally there aren't as many mosquitoes this time of year as there are in the rainy season, but everything is abnormal this year.  My feet are covered in mosquito bites.  Annabelle has gotten bitten a couple of times, but thankfully not much.  The lady that cleans for us will lift up or move something in our rooms and there will be a swarm of mosquitoes.  The only thing we can do about our ant and mosquito plague is fumigate.  We've fumigated just a couple of times cause it's hard to do with a newborn when we have to leave the house.  Yesterday was the second time, and today things seem a little better. However, the first time, it just took them a couple of days to come back!


Then, there's the heat; we can categorize it as a plague as well.  It's the dry season, aka summer, here in Nicaragua so that means no rain, lots of dust, and over 100 degree temperatures.  Unfortunately, our house does not ventilate well, so it's probably even hotter inside. At the end of the day, I feel like I have been in an oven and my insides are cooked. I've been scared to death about Annabelle getting too hot.  She's had a little heat rash on her neck, but nothing major and thank goodness she is doing ok.  I have to change rooms a lot with her to try to find cooler spots during the day since we don't have air conditioning here.  We keep the fan on her as much as we can, but sometimes it just moves hot air.


So there you have it... what we've been dealing with. Not to mention the day our electricity was torn up in our house or sometimes our water will go out.  But although I complain, I really shouldn't. God has still been good to us, and complaining displeases Him.


It's all made me think a lot about the Israelites in Exodus when they came out of Egypt.  There were plagues, even though the Egyptians had to suffer them rather than the Israelites.  Then, they left Egypt and their slavery and roamed free in the wilderness for 40 years.  You would think they would be happy and grateful because their prayers were answered and they were free from the forced labor and free to worship God. You also would think that they would trust God more after witnessing the way He delivered them from Egypt. They were even given silver and gold by the same Egyptians (see Exodus 12:33-36) However, many times throughout Exodus, we see the Israelites complaining and wanting to go back to Egypt.  And they had what we would consider really good excuses to complain:  1- they were being pursued by Egyptian armies that wanted to kill them (Exodus 14:10-12); 2-  they didn't have any water (Exodus 15:22-24); 3- they didn't have any food (Exodus 16:1-3); 4- they got tired of eating same food all the time (Numbers 21:4-5).  I think if any of us went through those circumstances, we would probably complain, too. Yet the Israelites were punished for their complaining; God sent venomous snakes on them! (Exodus 21:6-9)


Really, complaining is a sin. Even though I'm guilty of it, the truth is that complaining reflects a bad attitude towards God, an ungratefulness for what He has done, and a mistrust for what He is going to do.  When we complain, we forget all the good things He has done in the past.  We, as Christians, have to remember that first and foremost we were slaves to sin, but now, we are free from sin! (see Romans 6).  We have to remember that because we are free from sin, we have eternal life and an eternal inheritance share with Christ when we make Him the Lord of our lives.  We also have the promise that in all things God works for the good of those who love him , who have been called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28).  That means that even the bad stuff that happens in this life works out for our own good; we just have to trust and look to God when those things happen.


Let us not forget, too, the personal blessings that we have in our lives.  In my case, I should not complain because I have a beautiful baby girl who is such an easy baby and perfect in many ways.  I should be thankful that she is fully formed without defect or disease.  I should be thankful that I am healing well, too, and that I haven't had any major problems or pain.  I have to be thankful that even though this house has its problems, we still have a nice place to live with more space than we need and at an affordable price.  I have to be thankful for all the things we have in our house that God Himself blessed us with and did not come from the work of our own hands.  I am thankful that we have food to eat every day, even if it's just rice and chicken (like manna and quail).  I am thankful that I have family and friends that love me and support me.  Furthermore, I am thankful for the work He has given us to grow His kingdom and teach others about His word.


I can't complain. It's hard not to a lot of times just cause I get so emotional.  But I know, just like my mom reminded me, that I asked for all of this, too.  I wanted to know what it was like to be Nicaraguan. I chose to move here and live the way I do.  And the truth is, I have only gotten a taste of what most Nicaraguans go through. 


I keep thinking about a family that goes to our church in El Paraiso.... a mother of 4 abandoned by her husband living in a hut by the river.  According to Tamara, her hut doesn't have any walls anymore because they kept falling apart.  She sells cheese and enchiladas to get by, but I am sure there are many nights they go to bed hungry.  The youngest child is about 6 months old; she probably doesn't even have a crib and gets ants on her anyways.  Yet, they always thank God for what they have, and the children come to church eager to learn more about His Word.


I'm trusting that God is trying to bring me to that kind of attitude.  I feel like a spoiled brat; I think God just shakes His head and laughs sometimes when I cry or complain. Or maybe He does what Luis does and makes a pouty face and makes fun of me! But at the same time, He is and has been so patient with me in working with my character; he's gentle in reminding me of His truth.  And living in His truth and being conformed into His likeness is more precious than any comfort the world has to offer because it has eternal rewards.


Thank you for reading.  Please pray for me as God deals with me.  And I pray that God gently deals with you so that we together may one day reap the benefits of godliness.  May God bless you.



Friday, January 10, 2014

What the New Year Brings

Happy New Year, everyone!  I hope that you are having a good start of the New Year.  Let's catch up from last year's last post and take a look at what this year has in store....

Over the holidays, we took a break from classes in El Paraiso.  We did go out on Sundays and Fridays for Sunday School, worship, and youth activities.  On Sunday, December 22, we had a Sunday school Christmas party for the kids.  We played games, sang songs, had a pinata, and handed out presents.  I told the story of Jesus' birth using a recently donated felt board set.  It was a lot more interesting telling the story with visuals!



On December 30, we had a New Year's bonfire with the youth to celebrate the good start to our program.  About 25 to 30 youth showed up to play charades, sing songs, eat hot dogs, roast marshmallows, and reflect on the past year.  We got really good feedback from the youth about the activities.  A lot of them said that they were thankful to have something to do on Fridays since there is not really anything to do in El Paraiso.  One youth even said it has helped them to relate and build relationships among themselves, where before they hardly even spoke to each other.  We hope to do more fun activities every few months and continue encouraging fellowship and fraternity in Christ with the youth of El Paraiso.


The church in El Paraiso continues to grow as well.  This past Sunday, we had 40 adults attend, which is double what we usually have.  The big miracle is that it was "cock fight Sunday."  At least one Sunday a month, the community has cock fights that most people attend, and we usually have a very low attendance those Sundays.  However, it seems that God is really working in the hearts of these people and placing in them a hunger and thirst for His Word!

So we are having a good start of the year in El Paraiso!  We finally started back the sewing, cosmetology, and carpentry classes this Tuesday.  The women in sewing are continuing to work on scarves, creating new styles for Spring (please let me know if you are interested in buying or selling).  The cosmetology students were excited to start back classes after they came to a halt because the last teacher quit.  We were very fortunate to find Pilar Munoz- a sweet, experienced, responsible, and godly cosmetologist to continue teaching these girls.  Nevertheless, we need to pay dear Pilar for taking out 5 hours of her time twice a week to ride an hour all the way to El Paraiso and an hour back to teach 2 hours of class.  If you are interested in sponsoring one of these young ladies for $20 a month, please contact me or Tamara Price.  This sponsorship might be a good project for a women's group or Sunday School class!

Pastora, Maria Jose, Pilar (teacher), Deisi, and Ismara


Well, sadly, Tuesday was my last day in El Paraiso until after Annabelle comes and gets settled in.  The road out to El Paraiso is long and bumpy, and my doctor doesn't want me traveling that far and under those conditions so soon to my due date.  I'm disappointed that I won't get to see the dear people I love for a while, but I know that I am doing the right thing by staying in Leon for now.  Luis is still going out, so I will be staying with either Tamara's housekeeper, Patzy, or with my mother-in-law while he's out there.

I've got different projects to work on while I am waiting for Annabelle to come and even when I have to stay home with her:

  1.  I started a blog to share Annabelle's progress with family and friends.  You can  check it out:  http://babyquintanafox.blogspot.com 
  2. Of course, I will be working on Annabelle's nursery, getting her stuff together, and preparing everything for her arrival.  Problem is that we're in the dusty season, so I can't set up everything just yet or it'll get dirty!  Once I do, I'll take pictures and post them on her blog!
  3. Last Monday, I began teaching our friends Yeral and Karla English.  I'm going to try to teach them as much as I can up till my due date and see what we can do after that.  I am hoping that further down the road I can start having private classes in my house to bring in some income.
  4. I have had the idea of writing different kinds of books: devotional books, collecting different writings and testimonies from other pastors and missionaries, children's books, fictional books, etc.  I might start working on something like this, even though it will be a slow and long process.
  5. Lastly, but definitely not least, I will be spending more time in the Word and in prayer.  I know that God is teaching me and showing me that praying for our ministry is just as much important as doing it.  He has answered so many of my prayers lately that it has amazed both me and Luis.  I am thankful that He hears me and I know He is calling me to step up to be more of a prayer warrior and be more disciplined in this area.
So this is what I'm starting with.  There are so many more things that I have in mind to do like having a girls' Bible study in my house or even looking into creating our own ministry to work with youth in other areas or to feed old widows that beg on the street. Luis has things he would like to do, too. He wants to study a technical career like mechanical engineering on the weekends.  He also might do some gardening work for different people.

Proverbs 16:1 says, "To man belong the plans of the heart, but from the LORD comes the reply of the tongue."  Verse 9, "In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps."

I think I've said it many times before that we can plan and try to do many different things, but we can only do what the LORD allows us to do.  I think a lot of times God places desires on our hearts for a reason, but we have to trust in Him and listen to Him in guidance of when and how to pursue those desires.  God's timing is perfect for "He has made everything beautiful in its time" (Ecclesiastes 3:11). And again my favorite verses, "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." (Jeremiah 29:11-13) I want to be obedient in following His direction so that I may live out God's best and most beautiful plan for me and in doing so seeing more of God's glory and giving Him the glory.

Thank you again for reading and for praying.  Please continue to remember us and the ministry in your prayers.  May God bless you and keep you!